Single and Looking
So, I’ve decided to write this article on what it’s like to be single and looking. First, define single. Single means one, alone. Looking defined means to see, and to search. So basically, I’m alone and I’m searching. Searching for what? The ‘one’. It’s not much fun being a hopeless romantic, like I am. You’re let down a lot. You think you’ve found someone, you fall for them, and then they turn around and break your heart. That’s been my experience, anyway.
Here in Kentucky, there aren’t many kinds of guys to choose from. Sure, you have your basic groups, but most guys are just interested in looks. But I suppose that’s anywhere you go. Where are the guys who are interested in brains? Don’t you need more than just a pretty face or a nice body? I mean, I’m not an ugly girl by any means…but I’m certainly not a pretty one, either. On the other hand, I do consider myself to be quite intelligent and interested in what people have to say.
I don’t understand the physical versus intellectual argument. I’ve seen lots of cute boys but they have nothing ‘upstairs’; no opinions on anything. I can’t date those types anymore. I don’t like feeling like I’m doing all of the talking in a relationship. So how can guys date girls who look nice but have nothing to say? I mean, I’m sure they say something, but it all amounts to a whole lot of nothing.
I don’t have high standards. But then again, I won’t date just anybody. I’d love to find a decent looking guy with intelligence who doesn’t do drugs and has ambitions in life. A college guy would be nice. Because these days, you can’t get anywhere without a degree. I hate to be like that, but it’s the truth. I can make exceptions on the college thing. If you are going somewhere with your life but you’re not in college, that works too. I’m not just going to date someone who’s going to work as a cashier at Wal-Mart their whole life. A guy who has his own car is nice too; I hate being the one to drive all of the time!
I’m not a bad catch either. I’m a 19 year old college student with too much free time and no one to spend it with. I have my own car and my own money. I do still live with my parents, but I am not controlled by them. I’m not bad looking, and I consider myself to be smart. I have my flaws and my scars, but who doesn’t?
The funny thing is, you always want what you can’t have. For example, when you’re in a relationship, you wish you were single. But when you’re not in a relationship, you want to be in one. Life just works that way, though.
It also just so happens that everyone I know is in a relationship or just getting into one when I’m single, so that’s not fun either. But when I’m in a relationship, all of my friends happen to be single. But then again, I’ve been single since February so that does give everyone time to get into relationships. It doesn’t help that everyone I graduated with is having kids now. I don’t know what on earth they are thinking, having kids at age 19 or 20, but part of me is jealous. Of what, I don’t know, because I sure as hell can do without having a kid at my age. But there’s just something there.
In conclusion, life is crazy and unexpected. I definitely don’t need a man to survive, but I want one. I feel like my good qualities are amplified in the presence of the people I love, and if I could fall in love with someone, romantically, I’d be even happier. For once in my life, I love myself; now someone else needs to love me!
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By Tiffany, November 25, 2007 @ 9:31 pm
wow i completley agree with you. “For once in my life, I love myself, now SOMEONE ELSE needs to love me!” you just said a mouthfull.